December 2009
48 posts
you (ant)
If I were a time of day, I’d be 9pm; the night i realized it was the last time i would see you.
If you were a time of day, you’d be 11am; the time i caught your eye and we caught onto something.
If I were a planet, I’d be Mars; the possibility of life without any real application. If you were a planet, you’d be the entire solar system; because when we were together I was sure the sun...
dreams
i am not afraid to work towards my goals,
i’m just afraid of disappointing you.
i want to go to medical school, but i’m scared of blood and i’m bad at science. i’m good at reading and writing, i can look at a book and spend less than 5 minutes on it to get 100% on a reading quiz. i can pull words together and paste them together on a page in just the right order to get an...
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seasons greetings, hope your well.. well i’m doing allright if you were wondering, lately i can never tell.
i know christmas isn’t a lonely time, but there were christmases when you were mine. this year, i bet you got your mom another sweater, and were your cousins late again? when you were putting up the lights this year, did you notice one less pair of hands?
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formspring.me
i’ve been following your tumblr for a while now, namely because i love the way you phrase your thoughts. i can really connect with a lot of the things you say. lately, however, i’ve noticed that a lot of your posts were about the female population in general and how you find it hard to trust people. the sad ting is i get where you’re coming from, only because i’ve been...
i feel like i don’t belong in this time period.
like i was supposed to belong in a different community, city, world, universe; somewhere not here but i was misplaced. i have to think about things for minutes before i say them outloud, and i feel like i just began to understand the basics of human interaction. i don’t know why people react the way they do, and i just feel like...
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old pictures
i can’t look at pictures of you.
so i guess a lot has changed since i last talked to you, a year ago. you’ve cut your hair, you were rocky balboa for halloween, you don’t wear your favorite band t-shirt anymore, maybe you lost the hat you always wore when you were with me, it feels like the only thing that stayed the same is your soccer team and your new skateboard (which i...
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formspring.me
i really like your posts! how long have you been playing guitar? from keedohh
thanks so much! only about a year. i learned it to help get over a boy
Ask me anything
formspring me
haha i seriously doubt anyone has any pressing questions they want to ask me, but if you did you can ask me on formspring. :)
http://www.formspring.me/laurenyun
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measurements and words
i’ve never been good with measurements. i never memorized how many ounces are in a pound, or how to do the unit conversion between miles and meters and i never really cared to. sometimes people look at me with contempt, how can you not know basic measurements? they ask me and then they stand a little taller.
but i never saw a need to. why? i don’t use miles, pounds, or meters to...
foam mattress
for as long as i can remember, i’ve slept on a foam mattress. it’s comfortable the way the mattress molds around my body, creating a shell around my figure as if it were made especially for me.
everytime i wakeup, i worry that i have permanently indented the mattress in my shape. i wonder if it will ever go back to normal, back to the unscarred position it was in before i introduced...
RIP Brittany Murphy.
I just want to point out that before she died when people weren’t ignoring her, they were flat out mean to her. I don’t understand how people went from calling her a stupid hot mess to a tragedy that we will miss forever. but either way, 32 is too young.
reason #23 (for s)
reason #23: your smile, taking up the perfect proportion of your face and crinkling just slightly at the corners. i think i’ve memorized all of your smiles: your smile when i’m in trouble, your smile when you’re confused, your smile when i’ve made you laugh, your smile when you’re worried, your smile when you’re pissed off, your smile when you’re just...
in biology class, i’ve read about some of the most deceptive animals on the planet, but one animal in particular stuck out to me. the animal, for whatever reason, was extremely attractive to it’s prey, which made it easy for the animal to murder all of her victims. even when the animal annihilated it’s victim, the victim easily rested in her arms, allowing it to happen to him,...
accident
the other day
i saw an accident on the street. i didn’t know what to do, so at first i stopped, and then i just drove past it. i know that it wasn’t a brave thing to do, but i realized that’s how i deal with everything i can’t fix right away. because i’m smart enough to know that stopping can’t solve anything but i was never smart enough to realize that...
no offense
whenever i hear someone say “no offense” i know exactly what’s coming. “no offense” = “i’m going to say whatever the fuck i want in about 2 seconds”.
i don’t understand when it became socially acceptable to say crazy shit to people, as long as you say no offense before whatever you’re going to say. does it hurt less when i say “no...
“sometimes i read your tumblr and wish you were writing about me. you never are.”
– matthew, december 15, 2009
“how can i go forward when i don’t know which direction i’m facing?”
– john lennon
god in a restaurant
what i don’t understand is why guests in a restaurant are under the mistaken impression that the waitstaff has as much power as god.
i understand that you’re going out with your family to eat and tonight’s a big night, but that doesn’t mean that you get to walk all over everyone like you’re shaq. you’re not shaq. sit the fuck down. i’ve had people come up...
"is everything okay?"
"i think so, but i'm not sure."
"i want to help you, but i don't know how."
"that's okay, i understand."
biology
i am studying biology, which i am realizing is the religion of seeing.
biology is defined by those things that you see, touch, and hear which eventually becomes that which you know. it is your explanation for how the world works, and in a sense my textbook is my bible.
but the more i read, the more i know that biology, isn’t so different from god. have i ever seen the ventricles of the...
economy of life
I think that in the economy of life, the universe/god has balanced the spreadsheets so perfectly that everything will come out to exactly 0 in the end.
when god gifts you wealth, he will also define you in terms of your wealth. when you have money, that’s all people see about you. do you think of money or accomplishments first when you hear the name “warren buffet”?
when god...
elin
let me ask you something: if you could go home and hit this every night, why in the hell would you ever even touch this:
tiger you’ve been disqualified from this round of play.
but on a completely related note, it’s totally over for you tiger. just chop your dick off and hand it to elin along with the keys to your mansions, your career, and any sort of freedom you once had. hey...
music
music has always been such a big part of my life. the ages of my life are divided into the music i was obsessed with at the time. i love all types of music, the sounds and shapes and feelings i can derive from each song, the way i feel as though the singer is ripping the words out of my head and plastering each bloody letter into my ear. i love the way the percussion is dropped into the harsh,...
“you keep talking about how he doesn’t notice you but you never noticed...”
– a.v. 10-12-09
Hey, I wrote this.
codyloveslaurel: I was laying there with her and holding her hand and I was looking at it, and I felt like I was seeing it for the first time in my life. Like when you just forget everything and go, this is a hand. This is a hand. Like when you stare at a word too long and forget how to spell it because everything in your mind is so jumbled up. You can't think straight because you're thinking too much. So it was like I was rediscovering every part of the human anatomy, and every single thing. I looked at the stars and I stared at them, and I wondered and wondered and thought and remembered and loved and treasured and wanted to save each memory in my head for tomorrow. I remember I kept hoping I wasn't trashed enough to forget it all the next day, but somewhere I knew I would always remember last night and those moments and I do and I always will.
“i am the lamb, he is the slaughter.”
You change for two reasons: either you learn...
itchycosmicpocket:
(via poeticheartache)
far enough to touch
if i had a world of my own, everything would be nonsense. nothing would be what it is, because everything would be what it isn’t. and contrary wise; what it is it wouldn’t be and, what it wouldn’t be, it would. you see? -alice in wonderland
how do i know it’s you?
i close my eyes and breathe you in. i smell the familiar wash of your laundry detergent blended with the...
dreams
i’m not allowed to think about it, so the leftover thought, with no place to go, trickles into my dreams.
have you ever had those dreams that were so close to reality that for an hour after you wakeup you don’t realize that none of that actually happened? it is a peculiar feeling when you start to build on something that you thought was a solid foundation, only to realize that you...
“it rains when you’re here, and it rains when you’re gone.”
b.d.
today i was walking, and because i could feel a set of eyes on me i looked up. i looked up, and saw a girl, and i would tell you what i thought about her - but my brain cleared my memory of all of the things i thought when i first saw her.
i do remember thinking she was tall and kind of strange. she looked sad, and i liked her jacket. i wondered where she was going. i stood and looked at her, i...